I found you so quickly.
You were always there
and I was always willing to listen.
This is where my happiness lies, Father.
Since I started the journey of adulthood,
It's been hard to stay Holy to you.
This World needs blessings from Heaven.
I was born to this pain but sign me up.
Leave everyone behind for you and the duties.
This is not for the ones who think they are perfect.
This is for the I go so hard that
I don't remember the last time I went to church.
I did it all for my people and God,
type of people.
Can’t remember the last time I opened the Bible,
type of people.
We already know how hard life is, type of people.
Who is going to tell us, they are more holy than us,
type of people.
Who do you think walks with me through this hell,
type of people.
Damn, I miss church so much.
If our light is from God,
What’s the best way to navigate life?
Surrounded by material things
Blocking our souls from shining.
Far from my homeland,
I can't find a church anywhere.
Surrounded by so much loudness
I just want to find my peace.
Since day one, I knew I would have to leave my peace at home
and join the battlefield but faith they can’t remove from my soul.
My actions are blocking the hate.
Carrying on one day at a time
and it will be worth it.
I’m getting lost with the stars in Space.
Laying down my past,
Tomorrow the Sun still shines on all of us.
I am a light. I am a light. I am a light.
I fought hard to be a light.
Not a thing on Earth is free for humans.
Paying for the pain and the winning.
I'm so fine, it’s embarrassing.
Telling God my truth, who are you?
Telling him how much I love him, my Leo Prince.
Stars move, they never stay forever.
Every second lasts a lifetime for us.
Church,
so I’m thankful for all the blessings I fought for.
Church,
so I can have a place where they can’t touch me again.
A library filled with Heaven’s everything.
A warrior on Earth always making time
for prayer’s shields.
The closest thing I will get to attend church in a while.
Streaming the Gospel doesn’t do it for me,
so my heart waits patiently while asking
God for forgiveness, it’s been so long.
I’m too busy fighting for a change to be in the frontline.
My journey, my war, my life.
I took the hardest way to climb this mountain,
The only way I saw an out for myself.
Out of poverty and into a better life.
I'm big on a good quality of life.
Most don’t even ask for it.
When I was young, I knew I wanted to suffer as little as possible.
A good quality of life is hard to reach for most.
I was made to climb this mountain
that everyone is trying to climb.
I remember dreaming and planning,
where I am today and tomorrow.
Next week we fly South to look for a place to call our home.
My tears became an ocean during high tides.
The Moon lights up my heart in dark nights.
These Earth boys can’t break my heart anymore.
I repeat,
these Earth boys can’t break my heart anymore.
Stay or Go, I now give zero fukks.
Some families are not friends.
Out here, everyone is for themselves.
Apples don’t fall far from the tree.
Asshole parents having asshole kids,
Wonder why they become asshole Adults.
Thank God for all the family tree
That stays near God and never wither, Psalm 1.
If I was in charge of Heaven’s Gate,
I wouldn’t let most Humans in.
We all need to grow the fukk up some more.
As good of a person as I am,
I still don’t think I’m good enough for Heaven yet.
Time to get in the car and drive.
Why does 115 feel like it’s slow motion.
This time it feels different for me,
My whole DNA is finally ready
For the next chapter of my life.
This is for the I go so hard
I don't remember the last time I went to church.
I did it all for my people and God,
type of people.
Can’t remember the last time I opened the Bible,
type of people.
We already know how hard life is, type of people.
Who is going to tell us, they are more holy than us,
type of people.
Who do you think walks with me through this hell,
type of people.
This is for my mind,
You deserve peace of mind.
This is for my body,
I am enough.
This is for my eyes,
Only focus on what makes you happy,
In black and white or in shining colors,
Church,
in my heart
until I walk in,
Church.
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Angelina deJesus Solomon