My Strength

I’m going to turn this weakness into

my strength.

Where I come from your never alone,

so much noise from all angles.

In college I had a roommate,

then in my studio apartment at 19,

I was finally alone and on my own.

I hated every second of it and

would light up when a boy came by.

And that’s when I learned that

I hated being alone and single.

In my marriage I waited too long to complain,

when he would travel for work a lot.

There’s only so much your heart can take.

Moving over and over again can be lonely.

It takes time to meet people so

I'm going to turn this weakness into

my strength.

I remember those times,

there was only me, my angels, & God.

I was single and they had my back every time.

I have to put down the weed and drinks

so I can get back to my meditation,

chasing my vision and being focused again.

I let the World and People take life from me

but with me God always shines on.

He always turn my negative situations into 

a beautiful blessing for me.

I love that He knows my heart.

Humans killed me but God always

gives me life in any situation or dimension.

My anxieties can’t hold me back anymore, I refuse.

These humans can’t faze me anymore.

I fell in love with life so 

I’m living it as much as I can,

Through all the obstacles and heavy tears.

To overcome and become my happy self.

Today I fought off fears and ended up

parting on a rooftop lounge in Manhattan.

It was the best time I had in awhile.

Stressing none from now on.

Staying humble, that’s my foundation

so don’t ever try to check me

when I’m wilding out and doing me.

Freedom is what I fight for.

Most of us are still slaving in life

so freedom is what I fight for.

I have goals and a smile that’s real.

I’m shining even if I’m by myself.

I am also committed to my own growth, checkmate.

It’s a lonely road, are you sure you want to take it?

To take the oath of never giving up, Gladiators.

Winning through all the battlefields.

Life is no joke, grab a life jacket and hold on.

I’m going to turn this weakness into

my strength.

Where I come from your never alone,

so much noise from all angles.

When I walked solo I was the bravest,

fighting monsters in people

and fighting invisible rules.

Laughing through it all and still solo.

I got so much done but it was also

balanced with time spent with people.

Sometimes you have no choice but to

stay away from people with darkness.

If it does not better you than for what?

And I mean that in a respectful way.

Dear God, please protect everyone’s light.

Never again will I let the devil scare me to death.

This life was made for us, God’s Humans, Animals, & Earth.

Some of us have to go hard for those that can’t go hard.

And some people are not able to experience it.

Don’t hate on me, I pay for it everyday as do you.

I went through the jungle,

alone and with people.

Fear and hate took too much from me.

One by one I removed anything

or anyone that was hurting me.

At this location I’m lonely when he travels,

so I will focus on the things I love to do.

It’s taken me over 20 yrs to allow myself

to sit in all my blessings from heaven.

My fur babies makes me so happy at home.

My husband is doing great and is healthy.

I am learning to be alone and happy.

Back to my meditation and prayers.

I look down and see all of us,

traveling to different planets

but waking up on Earth.

Holy Spirit all around

waiting for me to open the door.

I don’t mourn luxury and money.

Money comes and go but

carrying myself right means more.

The elevator is going up so

no time to wipe my tears.

That road most took wasn’t for me.

Give me another year and I’ll fight

my last fear of being alone.

I'm finally realizing what God and 

the Angels were trying to tell me.

I’m going to turn this weakness into

my strength.

Where I come from, you're never alone.

Where I’m going, I have to learn to be alone.

Living like hell don’t exist,

I’m going to turn this weakness into

my strength,

Like a New Year’s Resolution.

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Angelina deJesus Solomon